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the intensity, glory, and absolute assuredness if my mind's flight made it very difficult for me to believe once i was better, that the illness was on...more

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It took me far too long to realize that lost years and relationships cannot be recovered. That damage done to oneself and others cannot always be put ...more

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There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you're high it's tremendous. The ideas and ...more

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Her parents, she said, has put a pinball machine inside her head when she was five years old. The red balls told her when she should laugh, the blue o...more

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When both she and I had to deal with our respective demons, my sister saw the darkness as being within and part of herself, the family and the world. ...more

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But money spent while manic doesn't fit into the Internal Revenue Service concept of medical expense or business loss. So after mania, when most depre...more

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God only knew what ran underneath the fierce self-discipline and emotional control that had come with my upbringing. But the cracks were there, I knew...more

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When I am high I couldn’t worry about money if I tried. So I don’t. The money will come from somewhere; I am entitled; God will provide. Credit cards ...more

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I compare myself with my former self, not with others. Not only that, I tend to compare my current self with the best I have been, which is when I hav...more